Feeling anxiety? Feeling pushed and pulled in different directions? Confused about how to move forwards? Frustrated about this dissatisfied feeling that is bubbling up that makes no “sense” to you? Tired of feeling torn in different directions?
A lot of times this is because our reality is not matching the blueprint we are operating from. Our belief and expectation about what SHOULD be happening, is not matching what is actually happening.
The more we struggle with these uncomfortable feelings, push them down, put them in a box somewhere in the recesses of our mind, or try to change our state to “DEAL WITH IT” (exercise, alcohol, eating, etc.) it just keeps coming back. Because:
What we resist, persists!
Sitting in the discomfort is uncomfortable as hell though. The discomfort is asking for our time, our attention, our energy, and that isn’t what we planned at this moment, is it? We planned on getting things done, focusing on our career, or zoning out on something fun. You name it. The confusing, uncomfortable feeling seems like a vortex of black hole energy that will swallow us up forever and spit us out (maybe) somewhere shitty, even more confusing, and so far from what we are expecting out of our life, that the idea of even stepping forward into that vortex just seems like the dumbest choice we could possibly make!
Unfortunately (or fortunately) on the other side of this seemingly endless vortex is the answer to all of your questions. And that vortex of fear? It’s really just a part of you that is undiscovered. It has been there the whole time. It doesn’t define you, it is just a part of you. You get to decide what to do with it. My suggestion would be to explore it so that there isn’t anything scary about it. Bringing awareness to it calms the vortex down and allows it to integrate with the whole.
Let’s first reframe the “VORTEX” or the feeling/situation so that is a little bit more approachable and less overwhelming. Let’s reframe your situation by comparing it to a neighborhood.
Your neighborhood is nice, community oriented, fun to be in (your body), but it also has this sketchy wooded area that just cries out danger silently(your vortex). But when we go into the sketchy area, clean it up a bit, understand what it needs to thrive, help those who might be lurking in the area to either not lurk, get the help that they need, etc, the whole wooded area can actually become an asset. A place to play, a place to relax, a place for community to meet.
You get to decide what you do with that area. But leaving it go will just facilitate more pain, more confusing, and more sketchiness that will resonate with something not great ultimately happening.
My suggestion would be (wink wink, nudge nudge) to go into that wooded area and try excavating the area. BUT, like any sane, rational adult who wants to be safe and feel good about doing this, let’s set ourselves up with the best tools for the best results.
SO:
Set your intention.
Why are you going into that wooded area? Are you going in with compassion and just trying to understand what is there and what you are working with? Or you going in to just knock down the whole area? Which intention do you think will have the calmest, most feel good result? Because remember, this wooded area is inside of you. Maybe, just maybe, go in gently so that the inside feels good and cared for.
How are you going in?
For safety’s sake, let’s go in with as much safety as we can. Call in support. Energetically or physically. Feel light as you go in. This raises your vibration so that you are not resonating with something “bad happening.” Because, again, what you resist, persists. So don’t resist something bad happening. Don’t allow it to happen by not worrying about it. And how do you not worry about it??
Focus on the Light.
Easier said than done, I know. Focus and feel what you are grateful for. Feel all of the people and energies that support you. Feel how your life is happening for you, not to you. Remember times of complete joy. Smile to your heart. Do all of the things for a couple of minutes that raise your vibration and swath you in light.
From this space of Light, Safety, and Trust, walk into the woods.
And just observe. Get to know the parts. Where are the trees? Is there a stream? Are there a bunch of brambles? Which parts work for you and which parts should go so that you can make this place fit the intention that you have for it? How can you appreciate it for what it is and really bring out the great parts of it and help the other parts that might not be working so well for it?
While doing all of this, make sure you are coming at all of this from a place of compassion and understanding. Your intention will create your outcome and choose which lens you see your reality from. Since these woods are really inside of you, it would be great if you had the Highest Intention for this area in mind… or rather, IN HEART.
If there is a lot there to take in, feel free to explore the woods slowly. Sometimes there is a lot to take in, and that is okay. Rome wasn’t built in a day. Be gentle. Take care of yourself. And know that it is all perfect. You’ve done this before. You’ve discovered other woods that you thought were scary and overwhelming, and then found out later that your really liked those woods. Like that time you might have been terrified of trying out for a new sport or going to a new event, and then later realized that you loved the sport or loved the people at the new event.
Those woods are really a gateway for something awesome!
So, to bring it all back to the original point of feelings of anxiety, confusion, or upset… what are we really doing when we go into this part of the woods, this new territory?
We are expanding our blueprint. We are going into uncharted territory (woods), discovering things that work for or don’t work for us, bringing light to the situation, understanding the parts of the woods, and then integrating it into the larger community. So that it can be an asset. So that it can be cared for, can thrive, and have a higher vibration. This expands our blueprint by realizing we are more than we thought we were, we are capable of more than we thought we could do, and we are able to walk through the before thought seemingly impossible.
And expanding our blueprint can be really scary. Because it is outside of what we know. And this, when reframed, is called learning, discovery, and adventure. As long as you are prepared (feeling trust, light, clear intentions, motivated to discover something new that will add to your arsenal of awesome), this journey of expansion is actually amazing. Expanding your blueprint is actually just smart, and exciting, and thrilling. Look at all you can discover and be!
So begin your journey! Expand your blueprint! Discover woods (that felt like a vortex but is really just another new exciting place) and enjoy this crazy adventure!
